Swipe Left On Perfection

Oh, Just another 40 year old AuDHD woman with a lot to say….after maybe a side quest or two.

Parts of the Rebuild


CRYSTALS and Rhinestones

Literally everywhere. I LOVE IT! Xoxo

I’m made of a lot of different “parts,” and I’m slowly learning to let them all sit at the same table.

There’s the hobby collector in me, always curious and trying new things, building little worlds out of interests and obsessions.

There’s the plushie collector who finds comfort in soft, gentle things and quietly believes that tenderness is a kind of strength. There’s the out-of-the-box thinker who sees sideways paths, odd connections, and possibilities that don’t always fit the mold.

There’s also the childlike, whimsical part of me—the adult who still skips, who laughs at small, silly things, who talks to stuffed animals and feels magic in ordinary days. That part reminds me that growing up doesn’t have to mean growing hard.

And then there are the quieter, harder parts:

  • The anxious part that worries about being “too much” or “too weird.”
  • The self-doubting part that wonders if people will really accept me as I am. If I’m learning life properly.
  • The part that sometimes wants to hide the brightest, softest pieces of me to stay safe.

But my story doesn’t stop there.
I’ve met people who see my softness and my strangeness and don’t flinch. People who help me believe in the goodness of others again—and, maybe even more importantly, in the goodness inside of me. Because of them, I’m learning that my anxiety doesn’t cancel out my courage, my doubts don’t erase my worth, and my tenderness isn’t a flaw to outgrow.

So I move forward as a whole person:
a hobby collector, a plushie collector, an out-of-the-box thinker, an anxious heart, a hopeful soul, an adult child who still skips—and someone who is slowly, steadily learning to love every one of those parts.



  • The Hobby Collector
  • Loves trying new things, picking up new interests, exploring little worlds of curiosity.
  • The Plushie Collector
  • Finds comfort in softness and cuteness, believes gentle things matter.
  • The Out-of-the-Box Thinker
  • Sees unusual solutions, thinks differently, connects ideas in surprising ways.
  • The Childlike Whimsy
  • The adult who still skips, plays, imagines, and notices tiny joys.
  • The Anxious Part
  • Worries about being “too much” or “not enough,” tries to keep me safe.
  • The Self-Doubting Part
  • Wonders of I’m doing life right. lol.
  • The Hiding Part
  • Wants to protect me by shrinking, staying quiet, or pretending I’m smaller than I am.
  • The Believer in Goodness
  • Trusts that people can be kind and that there is real goodness in me too, especially when others reflect it back.

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